Fallen Hero

"There's nothing to mourn about death any more than there is to mourn about the growing of a flower. What is terrible is not death but the lives people live or don't live up until their death. They don't honor their own lives, they piss on their lives. They shit them away. Dumb *bleep*ers. They concentrate too much on movies, money, family, *bleep*ing. They swallow God without thinking, they swallow country without thinking. Soon they forget how to think, they let others think for them. Their brains are stuffed with cotton. They look ugly, they talk ugly, they walk ugly. Play them the great music of the centuries and they can't hear it. Most people's deaths are a sham. There's nothing left to die."

I'm currently working as a model with Excel Models and Talent International.

I've received a spot with my agency as one of the 10 models in the state to go to the IMTA convention in New York City next July, which is the largest modeling convention in the world, where a huge percentage of those that make it big are discovered. My goal until then is to attain as many jobs as I can here with my agency and hopefully make enough from modeling to drop my other bullshit dead end job soon, but the opportunities here are limited.

My favorite aspect of modeling is runway shows, and I love being in front of hundreds of people and cameras on the runway more than anything. The first time I stepped onto the stage, I reaffirmed in my mind that this is what I want to do with my life for the foreseeable future.

Come July, I'll be seeing what callbacks I get from what agencies, and I'll be going wherever the biggest agency that gives me the best deal is, hopefully to one of the largest agencies and cities in the U.S.

Oh, and I'm already starting and hope to advance in my pursuit of the hottest girls in the world as well as the money and lifestyle that goes along with this career. I love it.

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"Do you believe in God, Andrei? No. Neither do I. But that's a favorite question of mine. An upside-down question, you know. What do you mean? Well, if I asked people whether they believed in life, they'd never understand what I meant. It's a bad question. It can mean so much that it really means nothing. So I ask them if they believe in God. And if they say they do -- then, I know they don't believe in life. Why? Because, you see, God -- whatever anyone chooses to call God -- is one's highest conception of the highest possible. And whoever places his highest conception above his own possibility thinks very little of himself and his life. It's a rare gift, you know, to feel reverence for your own life and to want the best, the greatest, the highest possible, here, now, for your very own."