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| Real Name: | Refia {Dark chocs} |
| Email: | Click here to email User |
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| MSN: | nikkai_h@hotmail.com
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| Yahoo: | marooned_chic
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| GameGrep account: | Marooned Chic
points: 352 level: 4 (Lil' Greppling) |
| Location: | private |
| Occupation: | Writer |
| Age: | 17 |
| Gender: | Female |
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| Biography: |
I'm just a simple girl with big dreams. I always want to explore new worlds becaue I usually get a lil bit bored over time..(well, who doesn't?). I currently take up nursing but I totally hated it. I want to be a writer, a succesful one. But I'm afraid I couldn't be what I really wanted to be at this time. You see, my life is a tragic one (Oh yeah? Well I look at it that way). I never had the chance to choose what I really like, if I want something, I'm given the opposite. I don't know why, but I'm very sure it's unintentional. I guess I'm really bound to get every opposite of what I dream of. I'm not a drama queen okay? I only cry when I'm really frustrated. I learned to endure it when I felt that some things are too much to bear that my lacrimal ducts are all empty, I could cry no more. So I just endured. It's easy but I learned it the hard way.
I'm not a loner, I have friends. Lots. But..but..they say that they couldn't see through me, they say I'm like a statue, concealed. And then I look at them with a question mark above my head, how come? I don't understand.
I have two real life bestfriends, back then I met them like, 'okay new people like me', and then I didn't know how but the next day we're unseperable. And because of my bad luck, we're separated when the next semester rolled by. And now I'm hanging with people who think that I'm a big secretive gargoyle. Geez.
I currently don't have a boyfriend, the last time I had it was two years ago. (whaaat?).
I don't understand this thing either. I have a sister who looks very much just like me (sometimes we are even mistaked as twins by strangers). She gets a lot of suitors but I don't. I don't give too much fuss about getting suitors but I also develop crushes you know? I dream of him and me then poof! I get the opposite. I mean, I get the guy on the back who secretly drools over my pictures. (Where the heck did he get those??!!) Sometimes I think that maybe I have a curse but I don't want to be like that, I want my dreams to come true! I get desperate sometimes so I just think of bad things so that maybe the opposite would happen. It worked a few times, Lol! But it's hard. Damn hard. It's like imagining myself trapped in a deep pit with a whole bunch of worms chewing on my feet.
I wanted to erupt but it's not possible because I'm not a volcano. So I just wait for someone to come. I don't know how long I'll wait but at least I wouldn't get the opposite. Yeah right, they say love comes when your not expecting it.
I have a great family, two sisters, my mom and I had a dad two years ago. Being with them took all my cares and my problems away. If I don't have them maybe I'm already doomed in hell for eternity (sin of taking away your own life). But gladly, it never crossed my mind and they introduced me to Christ. Yes, I believe in Him, I worship Him every saturday, I pray to Him, I love Him and He's my savior. In short, I'm a Seventh-Day Adventist. Turning to God when I feel so down feels good afterwards. It's like I don't have to carry all those burdens alone, it's good to have someone who's always there for you and will never leave you.
You may want to know how well my stay here in neo goes. Well actually, it's not alright. I'm a paranoid, yeah I admit that. I get affected easily when someone posted something that might well, embarrass me. My cheeks flush and it's as if I wanted to cry right then and there. I know fairly well that being sensitive won't do me any good. But I can't help it..I don't want to be a vulnerable girl because I know that there's no one who could protect me here. I only have myself. |
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